Kordracon

I am making a new E-mail.. therefore also a new DA. a new facebook a new furaffinity, changing my WoW account email address... yeah.
I need to make my changes and this will be step 1.5!
So yeah.. will post another journal for the new account and all when it's made :]
Hope to see you all around!

IDK...
but I want to draw..
but even when I am in a really good artistic mood I can never get anything done for one reason or another..
wether it be irritation that nothing is turning out right or a lack of supplies.. I feel like my art has steadily declined and now is a rare occurance...
I feel like I should cancel any commisions or request and trades and what not because of my inability to get anything done..
I need to pull myself together and get it done...
I need motivation!
Ahah! My problem!
Usually I am motivated by something I find grand or fascinating.. wether it be a movie or song or even a moment in reality..
where have all my inspiration gone?
hmm...
Time to go reflect upon this :3
Hope you are all doing well!!

Idk why I am so happy O-o
I think I am bipolar
Ah well..
Just wanted to update since I haven't posted a journal in a bit ^^
Been distracted by videogames and stuff :3
Well Hope everyone had a nice new year and a merry Christmas ^^
Let's get ready for 2011 and make it a good year!!!

You know what I find fascinating?
Romantic relationships from the third person veiw... you know what I mean!
Being the friend to a friend in a relationship.
You may not realize it, but if you yourself doesn't get to know the person, you rely on that friend to get your opinion of them... if things seem to go downhill you may hear the bad and it will stick... you will see that person as an enemy or a threat to your friend and encourage him or her not to be with them.
Also when in a direct relationship we tend to see things that aren't there.. like signs of betrayel or patterns that aren't. It's odd... I am getting ready for school in wich I will wright more on the topic for those of you who would be interested ^^

ANOTHER THING I find fascinating.. is how people think themselves as a species compare to other creatures...
I will be wrighting a lot on that too but it seems to me, that we as a race think ourselves greater than other species.... Now my typing is driving mom crazy so I will be stopping now, lol
see you all later and have (or hope you have been having) a good day

I.. actually think there is a slight chance I saved a dogs life today...

Not  likely...
Cataclysm came out and I was walking down to put some money on a preorder so I can get it later today.... as I crossed a bridge over the highway, I somehow heard whimpering over the cars. Curious I glanced over the railing at the ground beside the highway. It was a dog. At first I thought I was hearing puppies and I called out to get its attention.. in the same instance it looked at me I was brought to a horrible realization.. that was the dog itself. It's eyes were bloodied and it's maw too on one side. I stared in horror a moment thinking it had gotten into a fight... then it tried to move.. where it had been lieing there where massive amounts of blood.. my heart stopped and I hurried back around off the bridge. From a differant angle I could see the dog had been hit by traffic on the highway.. there were large blood marks on the road where I assumed the dog had been hit. I kneeled down away from it and tried to get its attention. It looked at me and struggled to get up. For the first few moments it stood I could see the damage all on one side, she had been hit brutally. Edging my way closer I eventually was right beside the poor dog.. I saw she was shivering (I don't know from pain or cold but I'm sure she felt both) So I took off my hoodie and covered her midsection up. She flinched but didn't do anything else. I bet her a few moments and then rushed off up the hill to a gas station. I called the local cops and asked them to call someone to come help the dog and went back to her... I sat there a long time, petting her and trying to make things less grim. I sat there two hours and couldn't feel my hands... desparate I stood up and walked back to the gas station asking if they knew any way to help. They just told me no pretty much and shrugged me off... I went back outside to the dog and as I waited to cross the road I saw a van with a logo begin to drive by me. It read "Animal care and control" I blinked realizing she was having a hard time finding the dog's spot and bolted after the car.... I don't know how... but I caught up! She stopped and rolled her window down and I lead her back to the dog. I was so happy when the dog had raised its head, assuring me she still had some life in her. Me and the animal control unit helped her into the van (Wich looked cold and unwelcoming) and I began to ask questions... The animal control person seemed to grow more sad for me.. than the dog. She answered my naive questons honestly.. destroying any hope for saving the dog. Telling me that most likely its too late, and the dog was simply going to be givin a mercifull death instead of continueing to suffer... I nodded... thanked her.. and I walked away.... The last I saw the dog.. she was staring straight at me before the lady closed the door...
I took my bloodied hoodie and hung it over my shoulder and head home..
and now I am here.. unsure wether to be proud.. or sad..
I just wish.. JUST WISH.. that I could have done more...
I will never forget that dog.. I named her.. hope..
Thank you for reading this depressing but true story...

         In the short memory.. of Hope